i wish that my girlfriend pushed a little more to do stuff.see right now we are in her nanna house sleeping on the couches.i have been horny all week im pretty sure she is to,but now she is trying to go to sleep.i wish she would just get up pull my pants down and starting sucking my dick.i know thats not going to happen wish i had a genie lol.
its the next day and last night i fingered her and she came.last night she didnt do nothing for me i knew this would happen i shouldnt have did nothing.now she is saying she has a headache which means now i cant even try to get none smdh.now its not what i wish its now something that will never happen smdh.i should make this post name smdh.

today i was just sad the would day.i wanted so much out of my girlfriend that i know i couldnt get.i wanted her to show me so much love without me telling h er.i wanted her to make happy but today it seem like i just wouldnt be.i try to be up but nothing felt good to me.just saddness i feel like my heart is crawling out.truely i wish to get this out of me this saddness.i think its because i am not getting attention like i want.it really does hurt me alot to know that sometimes she doesnt want to talk to me.i wake up at 11am and wait until 3:27pm when she gets out of school then she tells me she doesnt feel like talking so i wait until like 6 or 7 by 7 when i call her i probably talk to her for 30mins until she has to eat then we get back on the phone like 8:30 and talk to 12am or maybe 2am with breaks of 30mins or more if i am lucky.i guess i just think alot about how i would want my day to go.it makes me think she doesnt want to talk to me.i know she doesnt by now she probably hates talking to.i know doesnt like seeing me either.i know this because she doesnt talk about how she misses she doesnt care if i come over anymore.i am afraid that see well love me but not be in love with me.what really stab me in the heart was when she said she use to hug her ex after class.i soon as she said that i thought about me in school how i never really had someone to hug before class.then i thought i would have had love to hug her before class and walk her to class,but all i could think of was that the girl i wanted to have in high school had the momment i wanted to have with a another dude.i am starting to think that she doesnt love me like she love her other boyfriends.i am probably not as cute,uneducated,not funny,dont have as much money,no car,and can not hold a good conversation on the phone for her even to want to talk to me.i really at this point kind want to kill myself because i dont think i am right for anybody.

on January 24 2012 i was just laying in the bed and something hit me.i was just thinking about what i would get my baby for valentines.then i started thinking about what i gave the girls before her.i didn’thave to think long about it their were only to girls that i had given anything to.the must resent one last a year the other one four months.i know why the one for four months it was kinda mutual breakup even know i broke up with her.the one year was the hardest of all my relationships and is still hard on me today.trust me i am fully happy that the relationship ended and i am with the girl of my dreams now, but from time to time i think about how grateful i am that it ended, but very confused about how it did. i guess to understand why i am i should tell you the story but make it very short.i met this girl in the summer(don’t remember that date we got together no more) at first i thought about her size and couldn’t imagine me with something like that but i was already on the date i couldn’t get away from it so i gave her a chance.we got to talking for awhile which she got me to do something i never did before which was smile and laugh. i mean with other girl i use to smile but it was fake i was only trying to make them feel comfortable.she did something i had never had to deal with before she entertain me.i decided that maybe i should settle down with her because she could do stuff other girls couldn’t and i thought that if i showed her so much love that she wouldn’t cheat on me.she entertain me so much that the first four months of our relationship had flew by plus sex help the months go by quick to.as far as sex goes i was always satisfied. i believe that she thought that if she didn’t make me happy sexually i would leave or if she didn’t give me sex i would lose interest in her and stop being so nice.well either way the first four months were gone we started arguing but it was never that big because i would always bow down to her believing i was the one that need her.going into the seventh month it seem like she started to think i needed her the arguments got worst i was the one suddenly trying to keep us together letting her talk to me anyway.people started to tell her to stop talking to me like that even her on mother but for some reason i took it.it lasted two more months then in the tenth month i finally said no i cant do this i wont try to act like you are not hurting me i said i was done.she talk to me that and made me believe things would change.it did for a month our sex life was back to normal we were happy together until the twelfth month.some friends of mines were using a fake profile to talk to their girlfriends to see if they would cheat i decided to try her.i had completely trusted that girl i never even thought see would write back and i would show the guys that i had the perfect girl, but guess what she wasn’t she talk back to him then she told him she was going to leave me after prom.i called and asked here about it she said she did because she was i cried for the first time over a girl that day i mean pillow wet from the tears and she listen to but said she didn’t care.i tried to kill myself that day i took a bunch of sleeping pills i just wanted the pain to go away. being unsuccessful for three days i stayed in my room in pitch black dark crying thinking i would die alone that i would never be loved i wanted to die so bad.by the forth day somebody called i decided to answer(my phone had been of for the three days)it was her i thought maybe that we could work stuff out she said she was sorry and i accepted like a fool.i had maybe a week in a half before prom me and her talked and plan prom.she had already order here dress so she was ready but i had to hurry i got the money i needed and bought everything i needed.it was prom day we showed up at bridge street with my friend to take pics and eat.she did not feel good to start off that day then she believe that everybody was talking about her i comfort her and we decided to eat alone.we started walking to the car i tried to hold her she pushed me away i didn’t understand why all of a sudden we start fighting maybe the worst fight we ever had it was to the point were i wanted to go back home.i asked here to take me to my friend instead she decided to go to the prom she started getting madder and madder because we could not find the place. i tried my hardest to calm her down then we find it she parks the car and tells me to get out. i am like ain’t you coming to she says no so i was like well take me home i don’t want to go she says no then tell me to get out i say i am not going anywhere she pushes me then hit me i still don’t move then she gets out and calls my mom.mom comes get me and we breakup.i decided that i needed to leave Huntsville for awhile.i go live with my brother for awhile trying to start a new life.maybe a month later she hits me up on fb saying she misses me again i fall for again i try to let her back into my arms for her to destroy my hurt again maybe a week later she tells me she cheated on.she says she cheated on me probably five to ten times and it was from the start of our relationship until maybe six months.that hit me hard more harder then anything ever hit me.i lie to her and tell her i did to because i didn’t want her to know she ripped my heart out again then she said well i cheated on you because sex was good.i decided to say no I’m done and hang up i never talk to her again until the day she found out i had a new love.(i had found the most beautiful girl in the world a girl i thought was way out of my league.i look into her eyes and she my wife; somebody i can have a future with.yes we argue but she loves me i can tell i never had to guess with her like i had to with that other girl.)that girl wanted to step back into my life she told me she didn’t cheat because of sex (which makes me think into this day why then.)i tried to get my heart again from me but this time i didn’t give it to her i gave it to the right girl i gave it to janay.i don’t regret what happen between me and that girl i am glad because now i found my soul mate.i may have been scarred by that girl to the point were i don’t give my love one as much freedom, but in the back of my mind i always think this i didn’t give that girl a reason but she still cheated i give janay reason every time we fight hasn’t cheat but she hasn’t that still doesn’t mean i am not scared sorry poohbear wish i could be the man i was before that girl but i will always love you more then i would be scared.

me and my girlfriend always argue i really am getting tried of it.like i are argument all she does is yell and cuss or talk loud(which is the same as yelling).its really not the arguments i cant handle its because she keeps going and going and going like she is a fucking energizer commercial i never get to talk.that makes me so mad cant stand that it makes me so mad.besides that i am feeling like we don’t love each other no more.we use to say we love you every night now she doesn’t care.this whole thing has been making me super depressed and when i get depressed i start to eat a lot and have a strong urge  for sex.to me the urge for sex my have caused me to cheat on girls before.i really don’t know what to do.if i could tell her what to do i would say can we plz stop these arguments and have plenty sex with me i can handle the food myself lol but we all know its not that easy.I’m tried of counting items we buy for each other i am starting to sound like my bruh smh.all i really want is somebody to talk to, somebody to hug and kiss and somebody to make love.yes she can do all that but i want her to kiss me it seem like I’m always lean, hugs sometimes she tells me to come her, and she is trying with sex but i would like it she just start grabbing my dick and beating my meat or just jump down there and give me head.like i want to be caught so much off guard i am not even hard.that would be nice:).

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yes you do some of these things i never said you didn’t.two days ago was nice i was hopping that would happen the next day but you act like you did that before you was hurt.before you got hurt you still didn’t do some of those.the whole point of the my relationship blog was to tell you what i want and maybe you could do it, but i knew you would get mad instead of being like let me do this to make him happy.i knew you wouldn’t though smh.if it hurt so much to come over then don’t come then smh because i thought it was you wanting to see me but i guess not.

depression sets in once again i been having a lot of problems.lately i have been arguing with my girl normally i would be mad which would only last a couple minutes or hours, but i am depressed about it.so many things are different then are normal arguments this time she really didn’t fight for us to stay together she not trying to talk to a lot the day after and she didn’t try to end it.i don’t really know what to do about this.she has started talking to me less she tells me because she is doing homework but yet she cant call me after she finish.i try to ignore all signs of moving on.i really feel like that is what she has done i do not think she loves me anymore.if she doesn’t love me anymore i don’t blame her.i guess the reason i am depress is not because i think she has move on but because i have given her reason to and would not get why she wouldn’t leave.she says i have change but i know i haven’t but what i have did is become comfortable being angry at her.i have been this depress before but not with her with but with the  last girl.i really hope this doesnt turn out like that.tonight i am going to do something she likes to show her i love her i hopefully its enough.

today was the 7 month me and my future wife have been together.like most days me and janay are together it start of good gets bad then ends being great.i really don’t know why every time we see each other we have to go through hell to get to heaven.i do know at lease the majority of our days go good.that’s probably why we been together so long,but let me tell you what happen today so you can decided if its a bad day or good.first she comes over we play mw3(by the way if you got this on ps3 hmu my name is yogiidabear)then we decided to leave and go to walmart.she buys me a earring and i get them pierced as a Christmas present(earlier that day i gave her a necklace as her Christmas present)then we take a nice ride in the park(insider lol)which between th is period she gets mad at me we go home and she takes everything she bought me.we have a heart to heart then she gives me my stuff back and we make up and have huge kissy faces.i do not know why we even had to have a bad moments in the day maybe its because of me but either way we fixed it like we fix everything that happens to us.at the end of everything she always reminds me why i am with;she has always had one thing that all others didn’t the ability to recover which will make us stay together for 7 years if you ask me.no if you ask me i would times that by 10.

what do you do when the one you love does not think you love them.i have heard so many stories of people breaking up or cheating on their spouse because they think their not love.the girl i love could choose either one of these.i do not know why she doesn’t feel loved wait yes i do.from the start of our relationship i have been writing her sweet stuff on facebook.the problem is i stop about a week ago.i truly stop because lately i have been having bad headaches.some of these headaches has come because of my mom who has been pissing me off more and more each day,but she is not the only reason for my headaches.my lovely janay has been a problem to.we have been aruging more over stupid stuff.because of this i just havent had it in my heart to write her what she loves to read.i believe that if she left me or cheat on me it would be my fault.i feel i am not expressing my love enought but i dont want to be fake to myself.tonight we had another argument but it end well because i called and tried to smooth stuff out.tonight i feel like i could write stuff on her page and feel good about writing, but what do you do if writing sweet stuff on her page doesn’t work anymore,what do you do if she no longer cares if you tell her you love her, and what do you do when she fully thinks you do not love her.i don’t know but i hope it never gets to that and hope if it get to that you can fix it before either of y’all go to far and there’s no return.

diamondprincess94:

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what is the world coming to???!!!

first post lets go let me tell you about my life.aight its pretty much the story of old player you know fucking wit them hoes but thats the old me.the new me came in about 2010 i finally start to take ish serious thats when i turned 18. i thought it was always me trying not to settle down but i got a reality check.fuck around and tried to turn a hoe into a house wife.that was the first time i had my heart broken she cheated i thought i only did that but its whatever.i had ppl pick me up and show me its more to life.then old me was like a come back we miss and that was when i was enterpraise,al.if you dont know where that at on the map me either at the time.it was the perfect place for the old me to come back yeah i fuck wit some gurls down there.yo i was just doing my thing bitches came and went then i came back to the place i grew up huntsville , al.at the time i was still half and fight wit myself.should i be a dog like i thought i was suppose to be or do i look for a girl to put in my life.to be honest with i chose to be a dog but i meet this girl who came at me so different.for the first time i didnt have to lay game down she did it her self which made me think is this the right girl or is she the player and im the hoe and she just going to hit quit,but either way a gave it a chance.a friend hook us up so i really didnt think it was going to work,but i was like what the worst that could happen.so we went on a date.the first time i seen here i swear she had something different about her she had the perfect entrance to a mall that was shinning behind her i thought i was in a love me.we set and talk for awhile.this was also the first time my game was super off like if i was her i would have walk off but she stayed and went to the movies.til this day i dont remember the movie i remember she cuddle with me there and i also remember i paid lol.i left she left we talk that night planning the next date.after that day the rest is history we been together for 6 months going on 7 i am 19 she is 17 and now we getting engaged no whats next maybe a baby you never know ;).i am happy to make her janay alyse thompson